busy with i don't even know what in the world i am busy with and just plain lazy to even bother about this blog. perhaps 2010 will be filled with plenty of updates. most probably i presume :)
Shaifulridzuan at 12:02 AM

new year's coming. hope for a better year in 2010. no girlfriend, so? still young. enjoy life. chill, the time will come.

i think i need a new space. hmmm
Shaifulridzuan at 10:36 PM

"When I think of what i have and this chance I nearly lost. I can't help but break down and cry" - unbelievable, craig david

at times we really feels like we're losing what we have. losing the chance that we once know that it's ours. but no matter how hard it is, we just break down instead of letting it go.

let us just hold on to what we believe we might achieve. who knows there are blessing in disguise

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Shaifulridzuan at 12:22 PM

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Shaifulridzuan at 11:10 AM

1. looking forward to something
2. look on a brighter note, i still love it
3. i need a break, maybe to some foreign country
4. i have been lazy to even care about this blog
5. do i even care about my life now? pretty much no answer to it

that's about it. nothing new, things been the same. maybe some are not. but still, i'm enjoying every little bit of it. we're young, let's enjoy more and not to think much.
Shaifulridzuan at 2:56 AM

sometimes i feel that drifting apart in a relationship would make you realise how important your other half is. having them to be away from you makes you miss them even more. making you wanting to see them just to make sure that they're fine.

at times drifting apart makes you wonder am i still needed by them? am i just someone they'll look for when they have nobody? is your other half leaving you?

well, it's the way you look at things. if you think positively, you won't think that drifting away will lead to something you don't want to happen. in fact you'll work things out to make sure that you will wake up the next morning being an important person to someone still.

well there's a reason why to always look on the bright side of your life :)

Shaifulridzuan at 9:45 PM

Ku menanti akan dirimu

I'll be waiting for you



Shaifulridzuan at 2:38 PM

good signs are starting to show.
will this be temporary
or will it be forever?

it's hard to know
yes it's difficult to maintain
together going through this pain

then only to know
if it's meant to be
it'll be
if not i guess that's the end of me


falling sick is the last thing i've ever want to be. it's the worse feeling you can ever imagine! you'll know once you see me fall sick :)

for now, lets just take a walk outside

Shaifulridzuan at 1:20 AM

Shaifulridzuan at 12:16 AM

feeling lousy for no reason.
feeling grumpy for no reason.
feeling moody for no reason.
feeling down for no reason.

there are just no reason to all these feelings. but why am i like that at times? hmm
i wonder

Shaifulridzuan at 7:00 AM

life's great. it's a matter how you enjoy it. with whom you enjoy it and how you manage difficulties to turn it to joy and happiness.

life is full of ups and downs. it's a matter of who are by your side when you need the most. that's the most precious things in life. people that loves you be it family, friends or even boyfriend/girlfriend.

the most important thing is to enjoy and cherish your life to the fullest before it's too late. you'll never know when the almighty will take you back to the other world.

start enjoying life now and not full of regrets. let bygones be bygones and never look back to the past. keep it as a memory instead.

Shaifulridzuan at 12:03 AM

this girl here has been the pain of my ass in a good way. she has been feeding me food even when i don't feel like eating, when she can't finish her food, whenever she feels hungry when i don't, whenever she feels like it. this girl also has been staining my shirts and uniform with her make ups. she also has been making me smile when i'm down. this person here been hearing from me complaining like a small kid, making a fool of myself and other stupid things. thank you for tolerating with my stupid nonsense that sometimes make you mad at me. :)

p/s: now, i guess this is the reason i'm gaining weight :) cool!
this human being here her name is nur ameera. she's my good friend and her birthday is next week. she's damn irritating usually only at times she's nice. she calls me badak and babi but she didn't realise that's her name. HAHA! anyway, her birthday wish was to find a boyfriend. me being nice here promoting her. interested? please kindly tell me.

mati kau eera! padan muka! hahaha. da, i help you. see how nice i am to you! hahaha :P
Shaifulridzuan at 8:58 PM

certain things in life is better to be kept as secret. some people you may trust, but some don't. it's hard to know whether that person whom you're close to can be trusted because they might just stab your back one day. so do you think all your secrets are safe?
Shaifulridzuan at 2:22 PM

1. Hope that God really shows which one out of the 3 i applied is best for me. It's really what i want. Things that i want to do and learn to gain experience.
2. If something's not right, don't even vent your anger towards me. Humans do have feelings not only you. Doesn't mean what you wished for you didn't get means people don't bother or care. You can't see what people are doing and how they feel.
3. I've been patient enough with all the attitude. If only you were not an elderly, i might have screwed you up! For someone whom i've been respecting all this while growing up, helping you out because i know you can't because of handicap. Now all those respects have gone down the drain.
4. For once i feel motivated to do something
5. Now i feel like you're something. I want more of it :)
   

Shaifulridzuan at 9:27 PM

New skin and guess i won't be changing soon enough. It's GREEN! Favourite colour of all. HAHA!

Not been busy but just can't be bothered to update. Plus, there's nothing to be updated unless there are some random things that happened recently.

On top of all, past few days has been like a movie marathon. One after another. What's next to be watched? there are still few that i've yet to. soon!

$40 for a bag that is neither that small nor that big. Worth the buy? hmm

Shaifulridzuan at 8:05 AM

Nadia & Jannah with the "ghost" who wanted to kiss me HAHA
too dark to be seen
the devil
Jannah & Nadia with cik kak
this ghost got nice frame. HAH!




Scary as it is but a fun place to go. a fun place to laugh at how terrified your friends were. all the nonsense blabbered out when they were freaked out & were shocked by the "ghost".

On top of all, it was an embarrassing day ever. all the dumbness and clumsiness side of mine came out naturally. bet jannah and nadia had a good laugh at both mus and i. hahaha!

Thanks to nadia for purposely asking me to tag along so she can have a great laugh at me. had fun dear? hahaha! okay, embarrassed enough. i beg you nadia, please don't blog about it from A-Z. just a little will do. THANK YOU! haha

Another day past. so fast isn't it?

Shaifulridzuan at 11:26 PM

Now i can stop whining about going home late. school ends at 3pm except friday. but now there's new things to whine. every single day starts at 8am except thurs! haha. there'll always be something for me to whine about.

stay strong, you'll be fine soon. seen you going through the pain now. shocked to hear about it. but whatever it is, i've seen you all my life growing up. you're stronger than everyone. seeing you yesterday was a relieved. take good care of yourself. people around loves you

Shaifulridzuan at 4:30 AM

People change,
people don't.
Some may still be the same,
some don't.
This is life,
this is real.
What's with all the fuss,
learn how to deal.




Words can't describe,
even if you try to write.
Could this be a fairytale,
just like the big blue whale?
Or could this be reality,
living life like a celebrity?




Shaifulridzuan at 3:11 AM

Some times words are just words that don't mean a single thing other than just to make that someone feel good when they hear it. Some times people don't mean by the words they said. Some times words are just like being played around. At the end of the day, words are just words.

Some times words are a wonderful piece of words that is being carefully structured in a sentence. Meaningful words i supposed but after all, it's still words.

What am i thinking? Nothing. It's just words that are on my mind.

This has got nothing to do with anyone. But at the end of the day if you feel guilty after this, then it's not my fault :)

haha! nothing better to do in any ways. random thoughts!
Shaifulridzuan at 2:48 PM

raya this year for me not really a well celebrated one though i did fast the whole month of ramadhan. but the fact is, my first two days wasn't like how it is for the past few years. the feeling is really different. just like what seri had told me before the holidays.
28 sept to 1 oct was just pure fun and the start of something new between different campuses of ite college west. known as blaze camp, sort of a leadership camp. that's a photo of the group i was in. PINK! hahaha

okay, it was awesome. the fact that the activities are fun. but some of it i couldn't get to enjoy much due to time constrain. rock climbingwas my favourite of all. but too bad i wasn't really strong enough to go all the way to the top. was shaking half way during the climb. but at the very least, i climbed higher than the ones i did in christ church during RACE.

lucky enough pink was a group that really bonded well in a short period of time. i really thank you guys for the fun times during the camp. this is the start of a new friendship. maybe we'll meet again next year in the new college west campus in Choa Chu Kang.

alright then, i guess till here for now. thinking of moving to some other online journals other than blogger. time to get rid of the old times and start new. still thinking. cheers people
Shaifulridzuan at 3:31 PM

MOVIE MARATHON ANYONE?

i want to watch movies all day long. but that will equals to losing money! any kind soul willing to treat me? haha!

ugly truth! one word. AWESOME!

by the order of court, i'm going to dentist! haha

going to pluck out my tooth on the 6th of october! so don't talk to me on 6 october. i want to sleep the whole day. plus i can't talk much on that day.

fine, nonsensical post.

dreamt something yesterday. now i'm thinking will dream be reality?

figure out yourself what i dreamt about. HAHAHAHA!

have a nice day

Shaifulridzuan at 12:48 AM

nothing much to say.

it has been better this way

all i could say

forgive me and please stay.


since it's still hari raya, that was something that came across my mind while i was lying down just now. seek for forgiveness always been done during this season. but can it be done like a daily basis if you know that you're in a wrong? guess all humans have this ego in them. i guess

well, something to keep this blog ALIVE! haha.

okay, i'm done. my tooth aching and my gums are swollen.

Shaifulridzuan at 1:33 PM

Shaifulridzuan at 1:44 PM

i'm a mess! i'm living in a mess

this just sucks. why everything that i wished for
always ruined by my actions? why?

you're just too dumb shaiful.

stupid me, now i have nothing left.

a great way to start raya with.

go and die lah shaiful. BANG! you're dead shaiful.

DIE!!!! grrr. i'm a mess with a messy life. don't come near me
your life will get affected too.

i'm okay with whatever decisions. i deserve it. screw me!

bye

Shaifulridzuan at 1:00 AM

first of all, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI to all my friends who are going to celebrate it!

been missing as always due to laziness and BUSY with things i have.

today is the best day so far. made some kuih raya with my mom, sister and aunt! haha. for buka, i COOKED fried noodles. now who wants to marry me? hahaha!

jokes aside. feeling good, happy but with a mix of sadness a little. but whatever it is, lets have fun! i'm still in holiday mood. shall not elaborate more on the bad things. it's a no good thing.

till here for now :)

Shaifulridzuan at 9:10 PM

sometimes, your mood swings just get into your way. for no reasons throwing tantrum at anyone just to make u feel better. but on the other hand, you didn't realize that you had hurt another party by your actions.

thus, sometimes i think a simple sorry that is sincere enough saying it from the bottom of your heart is really enough to make someone smile. sweet words are good only if you mean it. if it don't then you're just simply a sweet talker. maybe you drink too much of sweet drinks. haha!

on a brighter note, i'm going to make $$. that's a good thing for sure. like finally.

had a bad day, start from bev to briefing. break-fast at LJS around 9.30 all by myself. but on top of that, you made my day :)

i'm just out of pictures for the time-being.

have a wonderful day :)

Shaifulridzuan at 1:43 AM

sometimes games can be an inspiration. i believe that certain games can really make you open up your mind and think. it can even be a driven inspiration you can pursue in the future.

playing restaurant city on facebook really inspires me a lot. i know it's kind of nonsense but it really does. it makes me have this feeling of opening up a restaurant one fine day and see how well my business will be. isn't it amazing if that were to happen? i'll surely want to be the successful restaurant owner in town.

okay, i guess i think too much. haha! oh well, it's just my imagination of owning and cooking for customers. having the satisfactory feeling of serving happy people and having returned customers who's satisfied with my restaurant's foods and services. a dream that'll bring good bucks but have to start from scratch. i guess i'm really planning of getting my butt into this kind of industry. maybe a pastry shop? that's a sure yes. get my mom involve as well. hahaha! a family business.

oh well, games can be a little addictive too at times. haha! u know what i mean *hint*

have a wonderful day ahead. smile always!

Shaifulridzuan at 10:15 AM

1. i guess living in this cruel world is such a bad idea
2. people always wants to be pleased
3. isn't it just pure selfish?
4. walk into people's live, cant' get what they want & walk out just like that
5. seems like to them it's a fun game after all
6. humans can't possibly pleased everyone they know
7. that's the reason why we're not born to pleased
8. what if that were to happen?
9. don't you think it could create a horrible disaster?
10. i wonder what's running in your mind
11. i just wonder
12. what the hell is happening to this people

Shaifulridzuan at 1:30 PM

finally done with all the changes. it took me some time though but i guess it was worth my time. i'm not an expert myself but trial and error really helps to gain that knowledge.

things has been great lately. nothing that i can ask for more other than to be thankful.

people come and go but there are people whom stays. it's a wonderful feeling to have those that stays no matter what happens.

i may not be an angel myself, but things are different now. i'm trying to be a better person, a better man, a better son to my parents and a better human to the society. maybe these changes need time and time will tell whether it is just a game or for real.

lets just hope and pray that everything is going to end up with neither regrets nor disappointments. because every move, might be a disaster. hold on and keep believing. have faith. because time will tell B-)

Shaifulridzuan at 7:53 AM

1. sometimes accepting things that you don't want to hear is very difficult and it keeps bothering you like nobody's business. at the same time, such things can ruin everything that for a while was happiness. it all turns out to be such a disaster after everything blabbered out. it only takes seconds to change from happiness to this!
2. sometimes people will turn out to be a jerk. reason? they still can't believe and trying to accept things that they just got to know. it might take days, weeks, months or even years. but sooner or later they'll accept it.
3. but no matter what, learning to except is a good thing and it means that there's interest. it's just that trying to let go the bad news is kind of a little difficult for some.
4. i need my happy pill now! where are you? :(

Shaifulridzuan at 11:06 AM

• this would be a short post i guess. favourite picture of all?

• happy pill? hahaha.

• nothing better to post actually. just to make sure that this blog won't be left just like that.

• exams in 2 weeks time. need to pass or i'll have to re-take the whole module again. well, all the best to everyone anyway

• i just need a doze of happy pill now. feeling rather sleepy.

• have a good day! :)

Shaifulridzuan at 11:25 AM

another week filled with assignments and presentations. what more will come? a few more weeks to go before the exams and yet to touch any of my notes due to all this projects needed to get over and done with. running out of time? nah, there's still time for me. just need to make full use of it now.

on the brighter note, i'm starting to realise how precious time is. all the naggings really works and stayed in my brains. thanks to that nagger. haha! it's for my own good anyway.

anyway, lets have some random topic here.

what's there to do in world without any friends around? try imagine it. picture how your life would be without friends. you'll find out the answer if your imagination are wild enough. haha!

till here for now. :)

Shaifulridzuan at 11:05 AM

"Stressful Apek"

Sometimes life is just hectic. with daily works to be done, chores and everything. just name it. there are always things to be done. what do you think life would be if it's just free and easy? i'll be the first person to ever jump up and down filled with joy celebrating freedom! haha

The life we have in this world is rather stressful than what we thought it would be like when we were growing up. looking at toddlers who knows nothing but playing made me realize that as i grow up, my life keep on changing. it's for the better but i guess it's rather more stressful.

At times i just wonder, why must it be this way as we grow older. have you ever wonder why?

That is just something in my head that i just feel like typing it out. well, actually i'm just done with my communicating skills project task. but yet to complete the presentation slide. it'll take me hours to do that. i'm just too fickle to come out with something. i'll keep on changing things though it's already good enough. another day left for me to complete. looking at the rate i'm going, i'll definitely be able to get it done. finally i'm good at time management after thousands of attempts. haha! eenaa, if u read this, be proud of me because u said that i had bad time management. okay? hahah

well, i guess it's time to go to bed or i'll be waking up late again and skip first lesson. but as a matter of fact, it's a great idea!

Have A Wonderful Day Ahead :D


Shaifulridzuan at 2:34 AM

I'm just plain lazy to even bother to update this blog. i don't even know why but i just love to keep my blog not updated. weird? but well, that's just the way i am. nyahahah!

okay, maybe part of it is true. but apart from that, i still do have school and which school doesn't have assignments and projects? even ITE does! see, how singapore's education system is. well, if you want to succeed, it's better to go with the flow and do it. i may be going to school often just for the sake of attendance, but i also want to do my best and proceed to another higher level of education after i've graduated.

time just getting on my nerves at times. i've yet to book my tp again though there's a slot on the 16th of september. but it's just a pain with the time that i cant spare. furthermore, money is another issue! to get that bloody license really cost A LOT! no matter what, if i want it, i will really find a way out to get it. though it may take time.

what are the recents? life? it has been better than ever. with friends around, i guess it's such a wonderful life i'm living now. so now, who says you can't live without being in a relationship? haha. all you need is a doze of irritaing, fun bunch of people that will light up and brighten up your life to millions and millions of watts. get the point? don't? aww, that's sad. haha!

okay, i guess i'll end here or i'll just continue on with the never ending crappy thoughts i have in my bloody brain that is just being damaged by sleeping. haha! anyway, good morning to all the people who do read this :)

Shaifulridzuan at 7:38 AM

finally after how many hours stuck in front of this computer trying to complete the ofa that i have yet to be done is all over! i'm totally done with my ofa except for one more assignment which i think i need some help with it. haha!

but oh well, still have cmb projects to finish up and then EXAM! time really flies. i don't even realise that i'm left with a week before the cmb project due and there's not much progression to it. well, i'll finish it up as soon as possible.

a few more days to national day. hmm, thought of having a meet up with secondary school mates but rasheed seems to be busy on that very day. maybe during the afsting month. we meet up and break fast together. sounds interesting. that guy has been asking me when we'll meet up and all. looks like someone miss his secondary friends badly uh. haha!

okay, it's time to get to sleep. school's starting at 9. thank GOD!

have a great day!

Shaifulridzuan at 4:05 AM

everything that i've planned for is all crushed due to exams. why must the exams be on the same date? hmm, well, i don't know what to say except to pray that there'll be slots for me after the september 7. i have to sacrifice that slot just for school.

if only i had done my very best on july 15, i would have already pass and don't have to think about all of this anymore. well, myabe luck wasn't on my side at that very point of time. take it as a lesson to be learn so i can succeed in the next test.

failure is a stepping stone towards success. that's for sure! :)

have a good day ahead!
Shaifulridzuan at 11:46 AM

the real test is starting exactly in 7 hours and 15 minutes time. nervous? of course! but, i'm controlling my nervousness so that everything will go on smoothly. that's for sure. just have to build up the self confidence in you but not to be so over confident because that will kill you.

i just need to be calm and relax for tomorrow and pray that everything will be fine. i've work hard, i've sweat it all out and of course, i've actually splash huge sum on it. so now it's the time to see whether i've put enough efoort or it wasn't simply enough.

i'll hope everything goes well tomorrow. AMIN!
Shaifulridzuan at 12:34 AM

time is running out. left with only a few days till the real test. a test that determines whether i'll succeed or not. will i be abe to achieve it?

weather these days have been irregular. that causes poeple to fall sick easily as well. sick as always. this nose that deena always disturb is always a trouble. this nose is always has been the joke of deena,atykah and nana. i'm like a clown who's with the red nose that little deena, little atykah and little nana laugh at almost all the time. hahaha!

okay, that's just an inside joke. haha! well, but the weather has really affect people's health lately. as for me, due to irregular weather, i fall sick easily.

i miss someone now. hmm, but does that someone even know? haha ;)
Shaifulridzuan at 1:07 PM

time past very fast. i've never realise this until now that i'm chasing after time. thinking whether i'll make it through or not. whether my money will be gone just like that. at this very moment, i just realised how precious time is. it's not meant to be waste. in fact, it's meant to be making full use of the time that we have.

now, i'm the midst of chasing time and making it. just to ensure that i get what i wanted badly that i've been splashing money on. it's not a matter of few dollars, but it's a few hundreds. if you're in the situation i'm in, would you want to see your few hundreds you've put in to fulfill your desire gone just like that? i'm pretty sure none of us humans wants that.

well, lets just pray and hope that everything will go on smoothly and time will be on my side.

AMIN!
Shaifulridzuan at 3:58 AM

Shaifulridzuan at 1:09 PM

This blog don't seem to serve any purpose of updating it but i'm just going to keep on blogging with more random things that just keeps on playing in my head and asking me to put it into words to make it into a beautiful story.

as for today's update, it's more of a short family vacation.

- First of all, it has been quite sometime that my family had been on a trip together. all this while i've been going to foreign countries like thailand and indonesia with my aunts and relatives. so, it felt really great to have that family time out together though it was only three days. but it was worth while.

- the trip was to Harris Resort which was located at batam. the place is filled with singaporeans enjoying their school term breaks with families. an ideal place for a break with family. the place is filled with both indoor and outdoor activities. you will surely enjoy the stay there.

- Furthermore, the staffs are the most friendliest bunch i've ever met. with endless greetings when they see their guests, with warm welcome, treating all the guests just like their own family. it's a two thumbs up for their services. seriously! hoenstly, i enjoy the stay there. it feels more like home to me.

- Nagoya hill was the shopping mall that we went to. filled with shops from fashions to accessories. all that you need can be found there. pricing wise is cheaper than singapore obviously. i even saw a shop named number 61 selling nice printed designed tee shirts at only $1. worth buying it i guess. where can u get in singapore for a shirt with that kind of price in a shopping mall? haha. i was shocked actually.

that's about the time out with family. if i were to post it more in details, it'll be a long one. well, i'm running out of time now. update pretty soon. ;)

Shaifulridzuan at 12:36 PM

• I seriously do think that i'm having some sleeping disorder lately. slept at 12 midnight and woke up around 3 am. that's like almost 3 hours of sleep? now i'm wide awake in front of this friend of mine. the technology that makes people interact without seeing each other which is known as the computer. it's obvious enough that i have nothing better to do now at this very point of time.

• Another problem is i'm having quite a long day ahead today. kicking off with theory lessons over at the driving center as early as 9.50 am. followed by training at ferrer park later at 5.30 in the afternoon. as far as i'm concern, i still need to bring my little sister to causeway point to get some of her school work to be done. plus, i still need to search the whole lot of boxes at home for aqilah's poa notes she gave me last year. just hope that i haven't dispose them off away. if it is, i'm sorry.

• I miss my sister who is away for a leadership camp i suppose. every school holiday she'll always will be the only one that is not at home away with camps and such. what an active small kid you are. no wonder she's kind of darker than me now. haha! well, i just hope my little sister gets home as soon as possible because i want to irritate her ass off. what a mean brother i am. i know. HAHA.

• Let's go on to something about life. what does life is all about to you? well, for me, life is a wonderful piece of art work, that is god's creation. it's just a matter of how you appreciate your life with the wonderful people around you that will always stand by your side through all the major ups and downs in your life. these people around are the best thing that was given to us to add in some spice towards leading a wonderful and meaningful life in this temporary world. family and friends is like the most important person for me. without them, this life would be filled with nothing but emptiness. as for friends, true friends will always be there for you no matter how busy their life could be. some friends are worth to be treasured in your life but some are not. there are friends that will stab you right at the back some day though they have been putting up a good act that makes you eat up all those sweet words they have said. i mean literally stab you, it's not stabbing your back with a knife or something. that will just lead their butts to prison. well, this is life. it's full of different people with different perception and goals in life. though there may be some people with common thoughts but at the end of the day, there are always differences. that's why there's always a disagreements in life. but what ever it is, let's enjoy this life wonderfully and meaningfully so that we can be a better person and feel good of ourself. life is very short i shall say. there are people leaving this world at my age. i can be leaving soon too but just that we won't know when will our time comes. come on everyone, let's party! enjoy the life we have now. :)

I don't even know why i'm blogging about life. it's just something random that i've not done for quite some time. till the next entry
Shaifulridzuan at 4:11 AM

since there's an opportunity for me to update, so why not taking this chance given. hah!

oh well, time really flies. didn't even realize that it's already 5 am in the morning and i've yet to get myself to sleep.

it all started from meeting rizal. haha! nah,not that i'm blaming him. friends that had not been hanging out for quite a long time. so u'll know there'll definitely a lot to talk. it's common catching up things with your buddies isn't it?

so i met rizal after my riding practical which i failed just because my u-turn was slightly wide. what a waste of money to fail. but never mind, i'll re-take it later at 2 plus in the afternoon. after the practical called rizal and end up we slacked under my block talking simply about anything. more like girls uh? call it whatever you want. haha! talk till it was 2 am then off to home.

oh well, time really flies and that someone still owe me a date. haha! i might not be in singapore from 21st. going off for a short trip with family but yet to confirm. hopefully it's for real. for once i'll enjoy doing something with my family which i've not been doing it for quite some time.

before i go off. thanks for being there for me whenever i'm in need. indeed u have been the best thing in my life apart from other things that has blossomed up this life. honestly,despite all the ups and downs,through thick and thin, u're still there for me. thanks for all the time for this past 2 and a half years. yeah,it's not easy maintaining it and i hope it'll go on and on. thanks for the love babe.

till here for now.

Shaifulridzuan at 4:55 AM

alright,this will be the last post of the month i guess. just have to wait till the comp is alive again. come to think of it,it's kind of impossible. haha!!

let's cut the crap. i had enough of talking nonsense with eenaaa from just noww and still continuing it on MSN. this kind of people at times you have to entertain them more or they'll sulk. right eenaa??

hmm,i've got nothing to blog about by right. but i'm going by the left. haha! so tomorrow will be my first game with tohari paijan's team wwhich i forgot the name yet again. might be in the starting 11 playing the position i hate the most. defensive midfielder. BORING!! but i want to play.

okay,go away from football for now. lets get back to eenaaa.

it's a miracle. today is like our two and half years that we known each other. amazing isn't it to know a girl like her although there were lots of things happens in between yet we're still together. well,that sounds kind of wrong. sounds more like she's my girlfriend. haha! but in actual fact she's not. how i wish she'll be mine. would you? hahaha! JOKING!!! i'll end up in IMH if you are mine. haha!

let me stop here for now. till my next post. pray i'll get my computer back as soon as possible. i'm bored during this holiday

Shaifulridzuan at 12:32 AM

I've just finished my BEV case study 2 which due tomorrow. so only left to print and i can just slack the whole day in school. it's my second home. haha!

first and foremost. due to computer down at home, i won't be blogging for quite some time. not to forget, thanks to tsya for lending me her laptop for me to finish up my case study. sayang juga tsya pat kawan. haha!

secondly, i miss my good friend AQILAH!!!! it has been nearly 3 or 4 months i've not seen her. only thing we chat. that's all. hmm,this is actually a promised i made to her to blog about her. okay, i'll blog a little then. better than never. haha! aqilah, has been a good friend of mine since secondary school days. a friend who will always be there for you. she has helped me a lot in terms of studies, especially maths which i'm suck at it. she has also helped a lot when i overcome any problems. in short she'll always be there for me. sweet friend. anybody wants to get to know her? see me first for interview. thanks! haha

oh well, tomorrow is the last day of school then i'll be enjoying my 3 weeks break. good news is, i'll be busy during the holiday. that's a good thing because i need to fill up my time. so i won't be that bored at home. another thing is, i have to be in charge of this activity for my class. something to do with the AYG. so guys, one request. co-operate. that's all i need. we as a team. live up the team spirit.

i guess i'll have to stop here or i'll just continue to blabber nonsense. haha!

though you'll be far away,
no worries dear
your heart will stay
this isn't some kind of play
but this is the truth anyway.

remember me while your gone
coz i'll remember you till it's dawn.
everyday,every hour
that's the promise i empower

till here for now. 8-)

Shaifulridzuan at 10:34 PM

okay,i'll be out from blogging for the time being. i don't have any idea when i'll blog again. the problem is computer crashed again. so,i won't be updating. futhermore,i have nothing to share. hahaha!

aida's post birthday celebration was a blast. plenty of pictures were taken. see it at my facebook.

till here for now. take care 8-)
Shaifulridzuan at 9:01 AM

school was pretty much more fun today. experienced something new today. first of all, car wash! i didn't know that it's quite difficult to actually wash cars. haha! but it was fun though. doing it with my crazy classmates. it was enjoyable though tiring actually. imagine we washed one car after another. but at the end of the day, it was a good business.

i think it's a brilliant idea to carry out this car washing thing every friday. so we don't have lessons at all. haha! well, didn't expect that ite would be this fun. although our friends from other course saw us washing cars and teased us, we just carry on with it but making more noise at the same time. haha!

okay, lets move on to other stuff. well, life obviously has been great with those bunch of friends that will never fail to make me laugh, angry and all at the same time. haha! indeed it's a bless to know them. though there are times that arguements and stuff happens. but hey, that can even make our bond much better. understanding one another more. that's the most important thing.

well, i guess in life we need chance. chance to know people, chance to live life to the fullest, chance to forgive people for their mistakes and chance for people to change. but sometimes, people just take that chance for granted. end up, you won't get that chance again. i mean ever again in your life. just like trust. once you lose trust on someone, forever that person won't trust you.

okay, this is just something random that came across my mind. it has nothing to do with anyone at all. but if you felt guilty after reading this then too bad. just like a malay proverbs saying "siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedas". haha! seriously

guess i'll stop here for now. till my next entry. have a wonderful weekend (8

Shaifulridzuan at 10:07 PM

once again i can't get myself to sleep. this is even worst. i woke up 2.30 am on thursday morning and haven't sleep till now. it's like more than 12 hour from the time now. i hate this things.

is it insomnia? hmmm. i have no idea at all.

how should i spend my weekends? doing nothing. may be i might use the time to study. tests and exams is next week. i need to do well. hopefully i will.

i have nothing to update actually. i'm feeling tired. i'll force myself to sleep after i'm done with my cpa.
Shaifulridzuan at 3:28 AM

Finally i'm done with my blog skin! What a long wait of search,changing this and that and finally,i've managed to get it done. Although the time now shows that i'm supposed to be in bed. Well,the actual case was that i woke up at 2 plus for no reasons.

Okay,here it goes. Lately i have not been sleeping well for i don't know what reason. My body just can't seem to have enough rest. I'll fall asleep around 9 plus onwards and will automatically wake up at either 2 plus or 3 plus. After that,i just can't get myself to sleep. May be because of the coffee i drink. On the other hand,it might not be either. So i'm not pretty sure at the moment what is the actual problem that lies in me. It's not that i'm having relationship problems or what so ever. I just can't sleep much. but i'll get tired when night falls.

So i'm still figuring out at the moment why i can't. Hmm,sleeping disorder perhaps? Haha. Well,definitely it is not any BGR problems or any other problems. Okay,may be it's the issue of tests that are coming that will be included in my gpa for the term? Wow,that really freaks me out! It's so fast yet a lot of things need to be done. I've only started school about a month and case study need to hand-in,assignments,test etc. Seriously,this course i'm in is not like what i've expected. In fact,ITE is as the same as other institution. It's only a matter of whether your lecturer do care for you or they just can't be bothered.

Oh,i'm selected for the nyaa silver. Going to Hong Kong most slightly. Good enough my PSEA funds is sufficient. Haha! Well,i just wants to enjoy life in school. Life is just simply simple. Just like what Aqira told me. It's either u want it or you don't. Just take it or leave it. That thing really stuck in my head now. Hopefully her words can really help me figure out something that has been a puzzle in my brain all this while. Haha!

with your presence,i'll never fail to laugh my heart out.
you've been the reason for all the smiles,
even when i don't feel like it.
but with all your fun-filled nature,
you made me think nothing else but to enjoy the day

thanks friends for being the entertainer for all this while though i just got to know you guys for a month or so.

Shaifulridzuan at 4:20 AM

damn i get irritated by this things. i've forgotten how to change blog skins! hahaha! what the hell am i thinking man. well,it's getting late, i better get some rest. school tomorrow at 9 am. oh well, just update a little.

played badminton with class advisor,Mr Baey. headed home,eat,bathe then fell asleep while my friend texted me. haha! now i'm kinda wide awake acttually. but just got frustrated with the blogskins that i've been trying to change. haha! oh well,some other days may be.

i'm going to bed now.
Shaifulridzuan at 3:01 AM

hello netizens! haha.

okay,this is like so random. i'm actually in class at this moment doing nothing but sitting in front this computer in class doing nothing but just making full use of the time doing nothing but rotiing. cool? come & join ITE Clementi's Customer Contact Services. hahaha! just kidding.

do u guys ever think of digging your nose real deep till it bleeds? hmm, i think if u ever thinking of doing it u should be trying. hahah!

oh well, this is just a nonsensical post to make sure that my blog isn't dead. haha! good day & have a wonderful time.
Shaifulridzuan at 11:10 AM

okay,lets just post something about whatever i did for the past few days.

firstly,friday i spent the whole day in school until around 5 nearly 6 pm in the afternoon. after the badminton training went home straight and enjoy the whole ay sleeping like nobody's business. what a pig u are shaiful. hahah! well,i didn't have any idea what to do for the whole day actually. was very tired that day and felt lethargic.

saturday,spend almost the whole day at my grandmom's place. i miss her like mad. it has been a while since i met her. it's very nice to finally meet her but it's kind of sad to hear about her illness which is getting bad. but she doesn't look sick at all. she's still very active for her age. she even told me that she wanted to travel around again but she just doesn't hev the strength to do so. an old lady with a big heart. that is my granny. haha! after spending my day at her place,wen to jalan besar stadium around 5 pm to catch kamarul's game,saffc against nfa U-16. what a pity that my friend was sent off. too emotional. may be he put his heart into the game and was frustarted that his team wasn't plpaying well. but well bro,calm down and enjoy the game next time round. haha! after all that,met an old friend that have not seen her for quite a long time. went to eat with her and have a long chat about school and stuff.

sunday went to khatib for the game. my friend called asking me to play for them. after that slacked at woodlands with them. at night hang out with a friend again. that's about what my weekends were. oh,yesterday heard a lot of bad things that i didn't wish to hear. it was so sad. but why must this things happens? i thought that it won't affect. but i was wrong. but what to do,i have to do this. i felt bad too after what i heard though i wasn't being blame.

to whom it may concern,please don't make all these things affect you. i've already told you and asked you to make a promise to me. please hold onto the promise you've made because that's my last wish. please don't disappoint your mom. you're her biggest hope.

till here. take care
Shaifulridzuan at 10:32 AM

What can i say,i've always been the bad guy in people's eyes. so what to do. i just ignore it then.

To tell the truth,i felt bad. but things have to be done. what's the point of lying to your own feelings just to make someone happy. i dont care if people wants to think i'm the bad guy, because i'm usedto it. it has always been that way. just forget it


Okay,i'm finishing up my case study now in class. it's a good thing that Mr Baey isn't doing any ofa today. i just don't know whether i'll have the time at home to complete it. i'm always busy with whatever thigs i have. so better that i make use of this time in the class. still have 1 more hour to go before cmb.

oh well, only god knows what i'm feeling know. thanks for everything. i won't be posting such boring stuff anymore. i'm not trying to be some pathetic moronic ass here. this is my blog,where i let out my feelings. but if u don't like it,just don't visit here to read. that's all i can say. take care
Shaifulridzuan at 8:45 AM

lets give a little update to this pathetic blog of mine. well,i woke up around 2.25am just now because i fell asleep around 9 plus. it's not really a good time sleep i had. it has been so irregular this few days. but who cares. to me, as long as i have enough rest so that i'll have plenty of energy for the next day is sufficient.



1st of may 2009was a blast. mayday outing with that girl. yeah,my girlfriend. ever since i've started my school,i don't really have much time for her. so,since that day was a public holiday,i make it up to her by bringing her to the movies. fast & furious 4 seats were left with only the front rows & me being me,we changed our plans & watched horsemen. it was quite an interesting movie,the only thing i hate is we need to think logically. hah! so after all of that we spent time a little while before i send her home.

well,seems like a nice fairytale story uh. but everything change now. no longer i'll be spending those times with her again. complications and such that led to split up. well,it's not her fault. but at times things change.

i'm sorry for whatever i've done and said to u. i know this would be a hurtful thing that i've ever done to u. like i told u,my patience has its limits and it already reached it. what's best for us now is we go our own ways and think through of our mistakes. if it meant to be,i'll still be yours. let us learn from this and hope we wont ever repeat it again being if we were to be back again or with someone else. thank u for everything. i'm sorry again

i'm still here if u need some company,that's for sure

Shaifulridzuan at 2:48 AM

well,this would rather be a short post.

school has been fine. went for floorball training on monday & it was quite okay. the guys there seems to be nice. same like the badminton players. so left with soccer. when will be the trials for college west i have no idea at all. but i'm pretty sure i'm sticking my ass with these two ccas,floor ball & badminton. as for soccer,i'm not sure. have been playing that sports for ages. since i was young. haha!

okay,so studies wise. i'm all stressed up with these business environment & the customer relationship management process & applications. the longest module name that i have. these two modules are like freaking me out. oh,i still have yet to find any article for my bev project. good thing that its due on the 15 may i guess.

well,need to finish up my bev,cpa & cmb. i'm done with editing my office application's assignment 9. i'm off for now

Shaifulridzuan at 12:07 AM

school has been great lately. wacky classmates and all kinds of funny lecturers. it's pretty slack i shall say. but only one lecturer really wants the best out of us which is good actually. she wants to see half of us proceed to polytechnics after graduating. hmm,stressful? nah,it's okay actually. but at times,it just got on my nerves with all the works.

okay,so far the most enjoyable module is OFA. we'll simply type and type the whole lesson. but at the same time,multi-tasking. surfing net and stuff like that. we're really going beyond the rules. haha! but what the heck,we still do the work or task given. BEV & CPA is more of a stressful module. don't really get what the module is all about. plus,that's the only two modules that we have plenty of assignments. CMB is basically listening and talking with the lecturer. is a module more to communication in business. more of so called entertaining the customer. hah! but after all,the lecturers are pure fun. they bring in enjoyment to the lesson. kind of exciting anyway.

oh,projects for BEV is already given and the due date is also already out. damn fast! hmm

okay,let's get away from modules and projects. lately most of my classmates have been taking pictures all day long in the class. what's gone into them? i don't have any idea at all. haha! well,can see that the class are gelling up pretty well in these two weeks. that's quite fast actually.

okay,i'm just posting this because i've just finished my assignments. so before i go to bed,update this poor blog. haha! anyway,why in the world it's so difficult to re-string rackets? i went all the way to causeway point in the evening and was told that it takes two weeks. i was shocked. end up i bought a new racket as a temporary replacement. my favourite racket needs to be re-string before i can use it. but whatever it is,i'm starting my cca this friday. BADMINTON! haha.

oh,i joined 5 cca's
1.soccer
2.sepak takraw
3.green club
4.floorball
5.badminton

haha! kind of 'kiasu'. but actually badminton was not my choice. i just pity the guy who asked me to join. it's no harm doing a so called new cca for me because i've been with soccer all my life. why not for a change. who knows i can be like taufik hidayat,the indonesian badminton maestro. haha! who knows. you have to dream big and work hard towards ur goal.

Shaifulridzuan at 1:08 AM

this would just be a random post.

honestly,i have nothing to post. to keep it from being abandoned,so i'll just post something for today. haha!

firstly,have been sick as always. i think my nose has something wrong. it has always been this way. it's like a pipe that can't be stop. i don't know how to say it actually. haha! okay,this all because of one incident happened in 2004. yeah,broke my nose during soccer training. so this is somehow the aftermath of the so called operation. the doctor have already told me that i'll be going through this after it. so this is the thing i have to bare all my life. well,it's kind of irritating at times. but i can't do a thing. so i just have to accept it. who asked me to be in a soccer team anyway in the first place. haha!

anyway,tomorrow will have school. but i'm still not sure what time my class starts. hmm, i just do my own schedule i perhaps? haha.

till the next entry

Shaifulridzuan at 9:34 PM

well,what can i say,school has been fun & full of enjoyment. didn't expect it at first though. lucky enough classmates are like super cool. haha! okay shit,i sound a little gay. oh,my ex school mate is in the same class too. but after all,classmates are fun and they are all friendly. it's easier to bond. seriously.

anyway,i'm just going through ite first and hopefully i'll do well and can proceed on to persue my diploma that i've been dreaming of. i think it's possible.

anyway,people are sleeping but i can say that i just woke up. haha! wooosh

Shaifulridzuan at 1:36 AM

hello to those who reads my blog.

well,first and foremost,school's starting this monday! heard that one of my school mate is in the same course as me. but not close to her anyway. but whatever it is,thanks to syahzanna for the info. haha

okay,i guess i have nothing to post actually. but i think i want to ask whoever reads this. why do people nowadays prefers to buy a notebook rather than a desktop? i mean although their intention of buying it is for home use rather than to bring it around.

well,that's the question mark that still lies in my head & brain now. i've been doing the roadshow from thursday & all i got is people keep on asking about notebooks but i've already mentioned that i'm selling desktop in the first place. why can't they listen anyway? problematic. haha

well,having a desktop is much better i should say compared to those laptops for home usage actually. don't ask me too much about this. it's a question for u guys who reads this post to answer. why people go for notebooks rather than pc for home purpose?

till next time,good day

Shaifulridzuan at 11:52 PM

here are some more of the pictures that was took in Bangkok. it seems that the pictures mostly took with our faces on it. not much of the scenery i guess. haha!



well,overall the trip was fun although it was for a short period of time. tuk-tuk ride was the best among all. imagine a small vehicle or so called taxi can fit in 5 boys? haha. it's just crazy. the rider are also crazy. they can just squeeze in just to make our rides fast. it's unique though. u can't find it in singapore.

okay,i guess that's for now. more pictures can be seen in my facebook account. but pretty much the same to what i've posted here. yeah,my cousin who's in Bangkok is having the rest of the photos. most of the pictures we took using his camera. just have to wait for him to send me all the remaining pictures.

till here for now
Shaifulridzuan at 8:51 AM