school was pretty much more fun today. experienced something new today. first of all, car wash! i didn't know that it's quite difficult to actually wash cars. haha! but it was fun though. doing it with my crazy classmates. it was enjoyable though tiring actually. imagine we washed one car after another. but at the end of the day, it was a good business.

i think it's a brilliant idea to carry out this car washing thing every friday. so we don't have lessons at all. haha! well, didn't expect that ite would be this fun. although our friends from other course saw us washing cars and teased us, we just carry on with it but making more noise at the same time. haha!

okay, lets move on to other stuff. well, life obviously has been great with those bunch of friends that will never fail to make me laugh, angry and all at the same time. haha! indeed it's a bless to know them. though there are times that arguements and stuff happens. but hey, that can even make our bond much better. understanding one another more. that's the most important thing.

well, i guess in life we need chance. chance to know people, chance to live life to the fullest, chance to forgive people for their mistakes and chance for people to change. but sometimes, people just take that chance for granted. end up, you won't get that chance again. i mean ever again in your life. just like trust. once you lose trust on someone, forever that person won't trust you.

okay, this is just something random that came across my mind. it has nothing to do with anyone at all. but if you felt guilty after reading this then too bad. just like a malay proverbs saying "siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedas". haha! seriously

guess i'll stop here for now. till my next entry. have a wonderful weekend (8

Shaifulridzuan at 10:07 PM

once again i can't get myself to sleep. this is even worst. i woke up 2.30 am on thursday morning and haven't sleep till now. it's like more than 12 hour from the time now. i hate this things.

is it insomnia? hmmm. i have no idea at all.

how should i spend my weekends? doing nothing. may be i might use the time to study. tests and exams is next week. i need to do well. hopefully i will.

i have nothing to update actually. i'm feeling tired. i'll force myself to sleep after i'm done with my cpa.
Shaifulridzuan at 3:28 AM

Finally i'm done with my blog skin! What a long wait of search,changing this and that and finally,i've managed to get it done. Although the time now shows that i'm supposed to be in bed. Well,the actual case was that i woke up at 2 plus for no reasons.

Okay,here it goes. Lately i have not been sleeping well for i don't know what reason. My body just can't seem to have enough rest. I'll fall asleep around 9 plus onwards and will automatically wake up at either 2 plus or 3 plus. After that,i just can't get myself to sleep. May be because of the coffee i drink. On the other hand,it might not be either. So i'm not pretty sure at the moment what is the actual problem that lies in me. It's not that i'm having relationship problems or what so ever. I just can't sleep much. but i'll get tired when night falls.

So i'm still figuring out at the moment why i can't. Hmm,sleeping disorder perhaps? Haha. Well,definitely it is not any BGR problems or any other problems. Okay,may be it's the issue of tests that are coming that will be included in my gpa for the term? Wow,that really freaks me out! It's so fast yet a lot of things need to be done. I've only started school about a month and case study need to hand-in,assignments,test etc. Seriously,this course i'm in is not like what i've expected. In fact,ITE is as the same as other institution. It's only a matter of whether your lecturer do care for you or they just can't be bothered.

Oh,i'm selected for the nyaa silver. Going to Hong Kong most slightly. Good enough my PSEA funds is sufficient. Haha! Well,i just wants to enjoy life in school. Life is just simply simple. Just like what Aqira told me. It's either u want it or you don't. Just take it or leave it. That thing really stuck in my head now. Hopefully her words can really help me figure out something that has been a puzzle in my brain all this while. Haha!

with your presence,i'll never fail to laugh my heart out.
you've been the reason for all the smiles,
even when i don't feel like it.
but with all your fun-filled nature,
you made me think nothing else but to enjoy the day

thanks friends for being the entertainer for all this while though i just got to know you guys for a month or so.

Shaifulridzuan at 4:20 AM

damn i get irritated by this things. i've forgotten how to change blog skins! hahaha! what the hell am i thinking man. well,it's getting late, i better get some rest. school tomorrow at 9 am. oh well, just update a little.

played badminton with class advisor,Mr Baey. headed home,eat,bathe then fell asleep while my friend texted me. haha! now i'm kinda wide awake acttually. but just got frustrated with the blogskins that i've been trying to change. haha! oh well,some other days may be.

i'm going to bed now.
Shaifulridzuan at 3:01 AM

hello netizens! haha.

okay,this is like so random. i'm actually in class at this moment doing nothing but sitting in front this computer in class doing nothing but just making full use of the time doing nothing but rotiing. cool? come & join ITE Clementi's Customer Contact Services. hahaha! just kidding.

do u guys ever think of digging your nose real deep till it bleeds? hmm, i think if u ever thinking of doing it u should be trying. hahah!

oh well, this is just a nonsensical post to make sure that my blog isn't dead. haha! good day & have a wonderful time.
Shaifulridzuan at 11:10 AM

okay,lets just post something about whatever i did for the past few days.

firstly,friday i spent the whole day in school until around 5 nearly 6 pm in the afternoon. after the badminton training went home straight and enjoy the whole ay sleeping like nobody's business. what a pig u are shaiful. hahah! well,i didn't have any idea what to do for the whole day actually. was very tired that day and felt lethargic.

saturday,spend almost the whole day at my grandmom's place. i miss her like mad. it has been a while since i met her. it's very nice to finally meet her but it's kind of sad to hear about her illness which is getting bad. but she doesn't look sick at all. she's still very active for her age. she even told me that she wanted to travel around again but she just doesn't hev the strength to do so. an old lady with a big heart. that is my granny. haha! after spending my day at her place,wen to jalan besar stadium around 5 pm to catch kamarul's game,saffc against nfa U-16. what a pity that my friend was sent off. too emotional. may be he put his heart into the game and was frustarted that his team wasn't plpaying well. but well bro,calm down and enjoy the game next time round. haha! after all that,met an old friend that have not seen her for quite a long time. went to eat with her and have a long chat about school and stuff.

sunday went to khatib for the game. my friend called asking me to play for them. after that slacked at woodlands with them. at night hang out with a friend again. that's about what my weekends were. oh,yesterday heard a lot of bad things that i didn't wish to hear. it was so sad. but why must this things happens? i thought that it won't affect. but i was wrong. but what to do,i have to do this. i felt bad too after what i heard though i wasn't being blame.

to whom it may concern,please don't make all these things affect you. i've already told you and asked you to make a promise to me. please hold onto the promise you've made because that's my last wish. please don't disappoint your mom. you're her biggest hope.

till here. take care
Shaifulridzuan at 10:32 AM

What can i say,i've always been the bad guy in people's eyes. so what to do. i just ignore it then.

To tell the truth,i felt bad. but things have to be done. what's the point of lying to your own feelings just to make someone happy. i dont care if people wants to think i'm the bad guy, because i'm usedto it. it has always been that way. just forget it


Okay,i'm finishing up my case study now in class. it's a good thing that Mr Baey isn't doing any ofa today. i just don't know whether i'll have the time at home to complete it. i'm always busy with whatever thigs i have. so better that i make use of this time in the class. still have 1 more hour to go before cmb.

oh well, only god knows what i'm feeling know. thanks for everything. i won't be posting such boring stuff anymore. i'm not trying to be some pathetic moronic ass here. this is my blog,where i let out my feelings. but if u don't like it,just don't visit here to read. that's all i can say. take care
Shaifulridzuan at 8:45 AM

lets give a little update to this pathetic blog of mine. well,i woke up around 2.25am just now because i fell asleep around 9 plus. it's not really a good time sleep i had. it has been so irregular this few days. but who cares. to me, as long as i have enough rest so that i'll have plenty of energy for the next day is sufficient.



1st of may 2009was a blast. mayday outing with that girl. yeah,my girlfriend. ever since i've started my school,i don't really have much time for her. so,since that day was a public holiday,i make it up to her by bringing her to the movies. fast & furious 4 seats were left with only the front rows & me being me,we changed our plans & watched horsemen. it was quite an interesting movie,the only thing i hate is we need to think logically. hah! so after all of that we spent time a little while before i send her home.

well,seems like a nice fairytale story uh. but everything change now. no longer i'll be spending those times with her again. complications and such that led to split up. well,it's not her fault. but at times things change.

i'm sorry for whatever i've done and said to u. i know this would be a hurtful thing that i've ever done to u. like i told u,my patience has its limits and it already reached it. what's best for us now is we go our own ways and think through of our mistakes. if it meant to be,i'll still be yours. let us learn from this and hope we wont ever repeat it again being if we were to be back again or with someone else. thank u for everything. i'm sorry again

i'm still here if u need some company,that's for sure

Shaifulridzuan at 2:48 AM